Developing Gradually

Well, here I am. Having survived my intensive two week journey down the rabbit hole of regenerative whole systems design theory and come out unscathed with something to show for it all, I feel pretty good overall. Having said that, it sure felt good to get outside this weekend, strap on the skis, stretch the legs, work on my beardcicle despite the biting chill and revel in the fact that, even though Myers-Briggs says I am an INTP "Architect", I don't think I have it in me to be confined to chairs and drafting tables for periods of intense duration. Design surely has its merits and is essential and as far as I am concerned, is more a way of seeing what is real and working in harmony with said reality rather than imprinting our own meager understandings and desires on it, which by its very nature is far more effective by design, whether intentional or not, than anything we will ever come up with.
The entire concept of whole systems thinking , really boils down to a series of metaphysical questions that are subjective to the one designing and therefore asking the questions. That seemed to me to be the hardest part of the whole class, asking the right questions. A difficulty that culminated at two in the morning with me designing of a tower that was created entirely out of Pabst Blue Ribbon cans which had a life cycle of about two minutes. A form of mental massage and cerebral release from the constraints of big picture thinking to say the least.
When thinking holistically about parts and wholes, the line that divides gets blurry. In a certain respect though, that is the end goal of whole systems thinking, the breaking apart of dualistic thought that has so plagued humanity and gotten us into this collective cluster of juggernaut proportions we are now in. One can only wonder how different the world would be if everyone perceived themselves as intrinsically linked and essentially no different than any other aspect of the created world, especially biological. One is left to wonder, mostly in awe.
And just to add inquisitiveness to imagination, I couldn't bring myself to separate the reality of my life and how it ,being a part in a whole, also encompassed the class and what I produced within it. I wasn't about to spend two weeks of my life filling my brain with valuable knowledge for the purpose of designing some fantasy homestead ungrounded from the realm of potential being when I could be focussing on a design that could in fact bear fruit. A much harder task than imagined considering that it really comes down to phases of implementation.
I in essence designed a concept aside from the specifics of a house and rough permaculture plan. A concept that I believe will be applicable to any situation and any environment due mostly to the fact that the inherent foundation of the design is a set of tools for seeing and hearing what the situation calls for. I realized, once again, the inherent life force in any process.

"what can be done with one substance must never be done with another. No two materials arealike. No two sites on earth are alike. No two buildings have the same purpose. The purpose, the site, the material determine the shape. Nothing can be reasonable or beautiful unless its made by one central idea, and the idea sets every detail. A building is alive, like a man"- Howard Roark